I am about to take a idea from Bre and spew my thoughts out randomly.
I am glad we decided to have a third child. It is harder then I thought it would be. I feel like I am neglecting my other two. I hate having to send Torin to school. He is stressed out and it makes me sad. I think he is mad at me for making him go and he is taking it out on me by starting to have an attitude with me. I need to find more energy to spend more time with him. I feel like I am so tired all the time and Talin is a great sleeper so I should not complain. My Tayla gets in trouble alot and I hate that if I could do more with her she wouldn't be acting out. I feel like a failure. My husband has so much to do (at work) and tells me he needs help and I have been trying to help him but I have nothing left. I am never alone. I am always with the kids and when they go to sleep then its Elis time the its sleep time and then it starts over. Sometimes I don't want to go to sleep because I don't want the day to start over. Sometimes I feel like jumping of a building. My kids make so happy. My husband does very nice things for me and always trys hard even when he doesn't want to. I hate yelling. It stresses me out. My mom always yelled at me and hit me so I do not ever want to be like that. I don't know how to make everyone happy. I want to make more friends but I never seem to be able to accomplish that. I get so tired of always taking care of everyone else. Well there is more but my baby needs me.